Chuchuhuasi – Angela’s Incredible Plant Journey
I had several reasons for choosing to do a plant dieta (diet) with Chuchuhuasi, a Master Teacher Plant from the Amazon.
- To cleanse and reset my mind, body, and spirit to be in full alignment with this phase of my life.
- To restore my womb.
- To ease my pre-menopause process.
- To feel sexy again.
- To reset my hunger meter. I was hungry to the point of anger (hangry) after just a few hours of not eating.
- To let go of feelings of being small and powerless.
The world is going through a chaotic time of rebirth. This year we have had massive wildfires, a pandemic, toilet paper & meat shortages, murder hornets, police brutality, protests, riots, and lies. I needed to get away from this and go within. I knew this medicine was calling to me, but I had no idea the depths of the relationship and healing I would receive when I fully opened to it.
I decided that for 3 days I would fully isolate myself, and that my diet would be extremely limited. No fats, oils, sugars, meat, dairy, carbs, processed food, or salt. I would eat only non-gmo, organic rice, bananas, and steamed cabbage. Only 1 cup of black coffee in the morning. No people, screens, social media, news, sex, or outside influence. I asked my husband (Mike) to go out of town while I did this, and he honored me by going to visit his family. We agreed I would check in twice a day to let him know I was doing well.
I already knew that Chuchuhuasi is a tree bark that is used to support stress reduction (emotional or physical) a healthy libido, ease nerve damage, muscle tension, diarrhea, IBS, dysentery, arthritis, rheumatism, lower back & joint pain, bronchitis, bacterial and viral infections, to facilitate healing after childbirth, and balance menstrual cycles. You can apply the tea to your skin or add it to your bath as an astringent or for skin infection. Chuchuhausi is one of the Master Teacher plants used in dietas. It is used to enter the spirit realm, especially when drank before bed.
Lessons put into my heart by Chuchuhuasi during my dieta to guide me:
- Release my guilt and shame.
- Learn to love myself fully.
- Focus on myself and what’s for me.
- Be here now, present, and aware.
- There is no disconnection, only loss of awareness of connection.
- Mindful Eating.
The rest gets personal, and your experiences with Chuchuhuasi might be quite different. I found that it’s a very, potent, beautiful sexual energy. By not indulging in self pleasure, but rather holding onto the energy I was building, I was able to learn so much about myself, who I am when I’m alone.
I am going to use words like “Source” and “Spirit”. You can replace those words with whatever titles or names you prefer to use for whatever Gods/Goddess/Beings/Energy that you believe in.
11 am: My first cup of Chuchuhuasi tea and meditation –
To heal my womb, I must release my guilt & shame, and love myself. When I remember how to LOVE myself, sexually too, I will be able to find joy in life, and in sex again. This would apparently include being nude for my diet unless I had to go outside. To have no physical barrier between self and Source.
I find I still have a lot of guilt around my sons, for choices I made that changed our lives dramatically, in ways I have a hard time accepting. I found myself wondering how our lives would be different if I had done some things differently and considered journeying to other dimensions to see. I wasn’t sure if that would help me at all. Would I struggle to come back to my reality if I saw how it could have been? I decided for now, I will work on forgiving myself for my perceived failures and to stop pushing Mike away. To stop seeing him as a reminder of my failures, that the truth is we didn’t fail, and the things that happened to hurt me so much are neither of our faults.
There are things in our lives that feel WRONG to me. But I don’t know how to make them “right” or accept them. But how can I heal if I keep choosing to try to have control over something in which I have no control? How can I accept things if that means being okay with them? Is not accepting them allowing others to continue to inflict pain on me that I don’t deserve? Yes. Would accepting them end the pain? Yes. Does not accepting, change them or mean that I don’t love my sons? No. So why can’t I accept that this is my life, even though it’s not what I planned on? Honestly, I don’t want to. Work on that.
12:30 pm – banana
2 pm – Chuchuhuasi and 1-hour full body massage. I find that the tea makes my lips numb and my “nether regions” tingly.
5:30 pm – 1 cup Chuchuhuasi rice (herbs cooked in the rice water).
9 pm – Chuchuhuasi & bed
Tuesday morning – Half a cup of black coffee and I drank my Chuchuhuasi as I walked our garden.
I spotted our first marigold bloom, I had tears of gratitude. I realized these 6 years living in this house (the longest I have ever lived in a place) that I didn’t do much gardening because we always wanted to move into something with a bigger shower. In March, it occurred to me that we need to be planting for Pachamama (earth mother), not for ourselves. So, we started doing it anyway. Since then we have found an RV to move into while we buy it, out of state, in the country, on a Lake! It could be partially that acting on our intentions to improve the world everywhere we go has put us more in alignment with the traveling house we want.
I felt an urge to be creative but couldn’t decide what to do.
Yopo Rape’ Journey – I don’t do this often, it's been over a year since last time, but it is incredibly powerful medicine, and I was led by the tea to do it as part of my cleanse. At first, I fought the medicine, typical for me. About 5 minutes in, my body decided I had to vomit, but had forgotten my trash can. So, I got one. Then I had to potty. But nothing happened in either of those areas, it was my mind trying to keep me from going in to the unknown and giving up control.
Then I was getting glimpses of light, like a door being cracked open in the corner. I got a message to stop thinking or focusing on what’s going on around me, to focus on nurturing myself and what’s for me. I saw a lot of blacks and reds with sacred geometry. Then I saw my son Chris (the one that died in 2016) come through a doorway on my right. He was wearing jeans and a dark shirt. He crossed the space, and left through the left, it was like he was on a circular conveyor belt, like the ones at the airport. Then I saw a black woman in the center of the room, dressed in red, working on something on a white folding table, like at a market. She looked up at me, smiled, and went back to what she was doing.
I started a painting that portrays my connection to the 4 directions and the 5 elements.
Noon: Banana & Chuchuhuasi
I was dancing, it’s one of my ways of connecting with Spirit and praying. I spoke the words “thank you allowing me to be a mother to my boys; I wish I had always been present in every moment while I had the chance.” As those words and tears of joy sprung forth, I realized that time has passed and been reborn. I can still live those days in my heart, but it’s time to become fully present in the days I have NOW, for THESE days too shall pass; like I’m on a conveyer belt. We’re always moving, but always still. In 20 years, I don’t want to be wishing I had been present in the days I am currently living. BE HERE NOW! It’s my time!
3 pm: Banana
5 pm: ½ cup cooked rice with Chuchuhausi seasoning
Full body massage after dinner, mini pedicure, filed nails, just some basic self-care, that I tend to see as spoiling myself, so I don’t indulge. That attitude about self-care is changing.
9 pm: Banana, Chuchuhuasi, Bed
Wednesday 9 am: Half a cup of black coffee. No food.
“Yardabout” (walk around the yard and gardens)
11 am: Distance Reiki Share.
No one showed up for the Reiki Share Conference call at Noon, so I looked it up and realized I sent early! The session and messages were so powerful, that I decided to do the sending again at 2, then the call at 3. These sessions are confidential, so I won’t be sharing them. Again, I got the message “be here now”.
1 pm: Steamed purple cabbage and Chuchuhuasi
The cabbage was delicious. But I don’t suggest you eat a half a head of purple cabbage on such an empty stomach, unless you really want to know how blue diarrhea looks!!
2 pm: 2nd Reiki Share Time, the right time!
During my receiving time in the 2nd session I participated in, I was compelled to hold 2 small apophyllite crystals in my left hand, and a black moonstone in my right hand, and to thank Spirit for helping me to let go. I felt at peace and heard drumming that wasn’t happening. Again, the message, BE HERE NOW!
One woman saw for me a beautifully wrapped red present that I was about to open inside myself. Another saw a black and gold spider, and that Mike and I are here as gifts to each other to help re-write our past stories together. A 3rd woman saw an exquisite basket; it was tightly woven by hand, larger than a backpack, new, strong, and safe.
5 pm: Chuchuhuasi rice
While prepping my rice, I found some tuna salad in the fridge. I took 3 little bites, then realized it has fats and oils added, not to eat it, that it would cause separation from the plants.
I got this message “Stay connected, do not let events outside of you shatter your foundation or connection to Source. We are the messengers! Just be you, here, now, and it will retell your story. YOU are a witness, not a participant.” But that’s not quite right either, I am both and neither. “JUST BE, AND WATCH IN PEACE. You deserve love, you are love.”
6:24 pm – I realize I am still holding Mike partially responsible for my pain and the loss of my sons. I know, it’s only his fault in that he gave them to me. That it’s something the 4 of us signed up to go through before it all started. That the whole process has made both of us stronger, better people, more aware of ourselves and our places in an out of this world. Somehow, I need to open my heart back up to him, and to others. To stop being afraid to love because it might eventually hurt me, I am love, and Mike is my co-creator. Together, we are the god and the goddess, experiencing the universe from our current perspectives.
Something came up with our shop today that upset me. Nothing big, just my mail carrier not scanning items when they pick them up from us. It hurts our reputation on eBay if things aren’t shipped the next day. I had to remind myself of the Reiki principle, “Just for today, I will not get angry”.
Maybe I want a tattoo that says “be here now” somewhere that I will see often!
9 pm: Banana & Chuchuhuasi
9 am: Banana & No coffee today
This is a huge deal for me! I cried one time during an extended hurricane power outage because it takes so long to brew on a charcoal grill! I wanted a cup of our “Rise and Shine” with a bit of Cacao added instead. I had realized instead of drinking bitter black coffee that didn’t really give me anything, that I could drink a blend of amazing herbs from the Amazon that would help me instead, and taste a little better.
I had an hour meditation with rattles and my spirit drum. Then I laid down and did a chakra meditation, with a crystal on each chakra for an hour. I focused on each chakra, bringing the energy through and around my full aura and body. Sometimes a chakra would spend extra time pulsing or connecting with another chakra. Some crystals generated heat.
I felt extra time being spent on my heart chakra. This is one that I struggle with, because an open heart is open to being hurt. As I laid there, naked and fully open to healing from all that have my highest good in their hearts, I watched in my 3rd eye as a tiny bud appeared in my muddy heart, slowly and carefully rising above my chest. When I finally asked my heart to open to love, the bud became a beautiful, fully open pink lotus flower. It closed and opened several times, until it remained open. I continued to relax and be open to my healing and connection to Spirit. I felt my kundalini rise and explode through me, as it shot out my crown, I was given a vision of the elements painting I have just started.
2 pm: half cup Chuchuhuasi rice
Mike got home from his moms house some time between 2 and 6. I had decided I would do the dieta for 7 days instead of 3. So, he picked up some groceries on his way home.
6 pm: Steamed flounder, ½ cup black beans, ½ a tomato. It was awesome to have something different!
We decided to go for a walk. Sharing all my experiences inspired Mike to make some dietary changes and spend more time in meditation as well. I know I’m not supposed to be talking during dieta, that typically it’s done in isolation, but Mike is my favorite distraction and healing our interactions is part of the reason for my dieta. I trusted my heart and the medicine as they told me interacting with Mike was an important part of the experience, not to feel any guilt.
Friday, 7 am: Rise & Shine with Cacao
The longer I go without sugar, the better actual foods taste! I can even taste each herb in my tea blend. I thought I ate clean before, until I cut some more out of my diet. I didn’t realize how much we add to our foods, that only eating “food made of food” still left a lot of room for add-ons that take away.
I didn’t realize how much those little things add up, and how much they disconnect us from Spirit, add to that the lights from screens and radio waves from communication…..it’s not all bad, but its not natural either, so it adds to the disconnect.
9:30 am: steamed squash, zucchini, and cabbage. I didn’t like this and didn’t finish.
Today there were a lot of things to take care of with our business and finances that couldn’t wait, that tried my patience and required perseverance. We did finally get it all sorted out and placed our 1st herb order since the pandemic shut Peru down.
I love my work, but I don’t need to do it for 15 hours a day!
5:30 pm: ½ cup plain rice, steamed grouper.
Kundalini chakra crystals meditation then a walk in the rain with Mike.
Saturday, 9 am: Rise & Shine with Cacao and a Banana
10 am: Chuchuhuasi
Some will say sex is strictly forbidden in a dieta. In some cases that is true and necessary. Mike is not some random guy though; he has been my husband for almost 24 years. This was truly a spiritual and beautiful experience for both of us, that I can only describe as tantric.
Saturday Lunch – 1 cup turnip greens
Our “spirit daughter” and her boyfriend came over for a couple hours. It was good to see them and get an outside world update. There are still protests, riots, and a pandemic going on. Large corporations and governments are speaking out and making changes. Some good, some showing who needs to be boycotted and voted out.
I believe absolutely everyone deserves to be happy, healthy, prosperous, to live in peace and to be treated with respect. The song “Resilient” by Rising Appalachia comes to mind often. I have danced and prayed that song a million times! It seems that many of us are, and that it’s working!
“Don’t ask what the world needs. Ask yourself what makes you come alive and go do that. Because what the world needs now is more people who have come alive.” Howard Thurman
3 pm: As I steamed fish, the burner went out, catching on fire and melting our favorite sauté pan. But it’s Teflon coated, so we decided Spirit was doing us a favor. After switching to a different pan and burner, finally finishing the food, I dropped the fish into the sink! It was clean enough that we still ate the fish. Another lesson in not letting situations rattle me.
Sunday, 6 pm: Macaroni and Cheese
There was a box of fancy organic macaroni and cheese that was in the cupboard taunting me all week! I finally gave in and made it, but the only thing I could taste was the preservatives! No more powdered cheese for me. Which I didn’t do often anyway but I thought all food and all organic would be okay.
The experience made me aware of something I have been mistaken about and have even mentioned a couple times in this blog. What we eat does NOT disconnect us from Spirit. We can’t ever be disconnected, even if we want to. But the things we put into our bodies, and the energies we surround ourselves with, can make us more and more UNAWARE of the connection we have to Source. The closer to “natural” that we eat and live, the more AWARE we are of our part in the universe and that we are all parts of a greater whole.
Monday morning, I joyfully made oatmeal with blueberries. I planned to resume my habit of eating at my laptop and getting back to work. Instantly, I got a lesson I hadn’t realized I had been learning throughout the week. Mindful eating. When I was eating only 300 to 500 calories a day, eating a banana was an intense, almost orgasmic experience. I learned to savor and appreciate each amazing bite. I don’t want to lose that appreciation for my sustenance.
6/14/2000 – Sunday
It’s been a week since I finished my Chuchuhuasi dieta. I still haven’t had a cup of coffee! I have added a few things back into my diet, but I’m still not using the “add-ons”. No honey in my tea, no ketchup on my fries, no meat on my burger. I will eat meat when I feel a need for it, but that day I didn’t feel a need. My body is much less tolerant of dairy. Any foods with preservatives are tasting awful to me.